If you asked my friends or family they’ll probably describe me as the friend who still needs to settled down, the friend who seems to drift from one thing to the next and lastly that friend who just doesn’t seem to have a clue what she wants!
But that is their view.
Or is it?
That was my view of myself a couple of years ago. I struggled with my perceived view of myself. I would do things for maximum effect or say things to prove myself or make myself liked. I’d take action on things other people wanted me to do, instead of following my instinct and trusting myself.
I’ve had job after job and I’ve moved time and time again seeking happiness. I’ve had relationship after relationship thinking that each one would make me happy but knowing deep down that until I was happy with little old me, then who else could love me?
I put people on a pedestal that had no right to be there. I chose friends who put me down and they chose me because I was an easy target.
I thought that drinking, drugs, miss-behaving and being wild would make me desirable but in the end I ended up hating the person I was. I wasn’t me. I was someone else with a mask on and that’s who people ‘liked’ – well that’s what I thought.
I have certain gifts and one of them is my never-ending fearlessness and faith that everything would work out in the end. Even when I have been at my lowest, there was something deep rooted in me that would pick me up, dust me off and put me back on track.
Don’t get me wrong I still struggle on some days, but a lot less and I am only human after all!
I believe that the key to motivation, inspiration and self-love is spending time with yourself getting to know who you are, what you love doing and that includes when you don’t feel like it too. It can be bloody hard, pretty lonely at times but you have got to grit and bear it because if you believe that something good is going to happen soon then it’s all worth it.
My dream is to make a living out of this, to help, inspire and motivate other’s to accept that their life is there for the taking. It always has been, if you let it.
I LOVE people and I think that connecting every day with someone, be that a stranger you let cross the road in front of you, or a loved one is a good start. If we can share that connection and understand that we are all connected in some way – perhaps we’d all be a little kinder to each other.
So that’s my story, I will go into detail but you’ll have to join to hear more – “great sales pitch Paula!” I hear you say – No not really, I just think the past is the past it’s the NOW that’s important.
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